Tricia Goyer is the author of twenty-four books including Songbird Under a German Moon, The Swiss Courier, and the mommy memoir, Blue Like Play Dough. She won Historical Novel of the Year in 2005 and 2006 from ACFW, and was honored with the Writer of the Year award from Mt. Hermon Writer's Conference in 2003. Tricia's book Life Interrupted was a finalist for the Gold Medallion in 2005. In addition to her novels, Tricia writes non-fiction books and magazine articles for publications like MomSense and Thriving Family. Tricia is a regular speaker at conventions and conferences, and has been a workshop presenter at the MOPS (Mothers of Preschoolers) International Conventions. She and her family make their home in Little Rock, Arkansas where they are part of the ministry of FamilyLife. For more info, please visit


After her fatal choice... extraordinary hope.

Why does my life have to be so painful?

What's wrong with me?

It's not going to get better.

It could all be over soon, and then I won't hurt anymore.

Kristen Anderson thought she had the picture perfect life until strokes of gray dimmed her outlook on life. Once a happy child, Kristen's world darkened after three friends and her grandmother died within two years. Still reeling from these losses, she was raped by a friend she thought she could trust. She soon spiraled into a depression that didn't seem to have a bottom.

One January night, the seventeen-year-old made a decision: She no longer wanted to deal with the emotional pain that smothered her. She lay down on a set of cold railroad tracks and waited-for a freight train to send her to heaven...and peace.

Fear coursed through me. I squeezed my eyes tighter.

It's going to be over now. The pain is going to end. I'll be in heaven soon.

As the train whistle blew, the vibration of my body stilled.

The sound stopped. The wind stopped. The train stopped.

Am I dead yet?

Amazingly, Kristen survived her suicide attempt... but the 33 freight cars that ran over her severed her legs. Now she not only had to deal with depression; she also had to face the physical pain and life without legs.

But Kristen's story didn't end there. After her darkest days Kristen discovered a real purpose for living. Now, in her compelling book Life, In Spite of Me, Kristen shares her journey from despair to hope.

Includes letters from Kristen that share messages she wishes someone would have told her-when she was depressed and struggling with loss, shame from sexual abuse, and suicidal thoughts.


By Kristen Jane Anderson
With Tricia Goyer
Published by Multnomah
ISBN# 978-1-60142-252-1
209 Pages
Back Cover: Kristen Anderson thought she had the picture-perfect life until strokes of gray dimmed her outlook: three friends and her grandmother died within two years. Still reeling from these losses, she was raped by a friend she thought she could trust. She soon spiraled into a seemingly bottomless depression.

One January night, the seventeen-year-old decided she no longer wanted to deal with the emotional pain that smothered her. She lay down on a set of cold railroad tracks and waited for a freight train to send her to heaven…and peace.

In Life, In Spite of Me this remarkably joyful young woman shares the miracle of her survival, the agonizing aftermath of her failed suicide attempt, and the hope that has completely transformed her life, giving her a powerful purpose for living.

Her gripping story of finding joy against all odds provides a vivid and unforgettable reminder that life is a gift to be treasured.

REVIEW: “If only I could have figured out how to deal with all the pain inside before it came to this. I was never trying to hurt anyone, yet I had. Especially myself.”

I had seen a video of Oprah Winfrey interviewing Kristen; it was powerful. I remember thinking how could this girl be smiling? When Multnomah offered a review copy of this book, I quickly signed up to help spread the word about the testimony of Christ moving in and through this young woman who found hope and peace in a hopelessly agonizing situation.

I couldn’t stop reading this book from the very first page. It’s written in first person, so I felt as if I were sitting down with Kristen as she told me her story.

Kristen states she was brought up in a good home and life was happy until things happened that started to rocked her world—the unexpected death of her grandmother, the suicide of a very close friend and another unexpected trauma at a party. Kristen starts to feel helpless and wonders why she couldn’t get past these feelings like everyone else. At seventeen she starts to look at life through new eyes and says this, “unlike Cinderella, I had no fairy godmother who could make everything beautiful and perfect with one zing of a magic wand! But as long as I could push the problems out of my mind, keep them from distracting me, I was fine!”

Doctors and paramedics who were first on the scene told Kristin she shouldn’t have survived. Kristin knew it was by the Grace of God she lived and He brought the people necessary to her situation to help her live. She wondered, why? What was the purpose?

She came to learn that God works all things out in life for His glory and our good. Even things meant to destroy us. He uses it all. This is an inspiring courageous story you’ll never forget. It will touch your heart, give you hope, encouragement and remind you life is a gift to be cherished.

Nora St. Laurent
ACFW Book Club Coordinator

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1 comment:

  1. She is a normal teenager who just feels like what she has done to her relationships and other things that have happened to her are inerasable. One night she doesn't want to go home, she is sitting in a park trying to figure out what to do next. She ends up on train tracks in extremely cold weather with snow everywhere. She hears a train and in a split second decides to go lay on the tracks and let the train kill here!